…Or is THIS Square One?

Maybe I was wrong when I posted before. Just this past week, April 24, in the middle of the night, I began to have such severe cramps and bleeding that I woke up at 1:45 a.m. The pain rivaled the pain of my miscarriage. I was wide awake in pain for 2 hours until the extra strength quick-release acetaminophen kicked in. I continued to take the maximum dosage, staggered throughout the whole next day.

This makes me wonder if what I thought was my first period post miscarriage (27 day cycle) was actually just the conclusion of my miscarriage. I had just lost a bit more tissue the day before that first period started. I would guess the severe cramps this time around indicate my first actual period. That would make this period 61 days from the day I miscarried at 11 weeks.

I haven’t gone back to my RE because I frankly don’t think I could handle any more negative information of another reminder of “you don’t have many eggs left” and “the ones you have aren’t of good quality” and “you’ll likely go into menopause in your mid 30’s.” If I don’t ever have to go back, I won’t. We proved the statistics wrong once, so we will do it again. My AMH went from 1.0 to 1.1 in just two months with diet, acupuncture, massage, reduction in stress, and lots of prayers.

Keeping you all in my thoughts.


In Waiting…

My body miscarried O.P. naturally at 11 weeks. It all happened with extreme pain in about two hours. There were nasty cramps for about 30 hours before, but after it passed, I felt amazingly well. I’m sure it was a rush of endorphins from the extreme pain letting up and also from the knowledge of knowing that my body was able to begin moving forward.
It is three weeks, two ultrasounds, and two blood draw vials later. My hCG was 34,000 at 9 weeks, 4,000 at 11 weeks, and at 13 weeks it is just above 100 with some remaining tissue.
I am amazed at how my body is holding on. I hope this is a good sign for future pregnancies.

I have continued acupuncture and keeping up on my diet. I did splurge for a week, eating chocolates :) but I did my best to keep true to our ultimate goal. It will all be worth it.

I’m taking time to appreciate life. Each day, finding at least one thing to appreciate. For instance, seeding a hard-to-grow-grass spot in our yard.
All is well. Praying for patience.


I have asked many questions, searched medical resources, and poured through fertility clinics’ websites. As far as I understand, AMH, the Anti Mullerian Hormone, relates to ovarian reserve – quantity of eggs, response to fertility drugs, and chances of a natural, healthy pregnancy. There appear to be at least two different scales for AMH: from 0-6.8 ng/ml and from 0-48.5 pmol/L. There are also differing opinions on what is determined as low AMH or normal. If you have another AMH scale, post to let me know! I’m intrigued to find out.

I am in the process of understanding the diagnosis of Low AMH. I am also trying acupuncture, herbs, diet, and abdominal massage because I was told there were no treatments to improve low AMH.

Stick with me and I’ll share anything I come across!

Eating for TCM

I mentioned I began a diet to aide Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) with herbs from my acupuncturist. To summarize the diet, I avoid eating foods with little nutritional value and opt for nutrient dense foods, focusing on eating whole foods. The first step for me was avoiding white sugar, white flour, white rice, white potatoes, and all dairy. I have exchanged my cow’s milk for rice milk. Almond milk, soy milk, and coconut milk were other options, but I by far preferred the taste of rice milk. From the guidelines, goat’s milk and cheese are okay to eat and I do like to taste of the goat cheese, but I have yet to sample the goat milk.

I avoid processed foods the best I can and have been making my own breads at home using honey instead of sugar and water instead of milk. I have added pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, hazelnuts/filberts, and almonds to my cabinet staples and I try them with my cooked greens. I discovered a love for kale and collard greens when sauteed with red onions, olive oil, and garlic with a few red pepper flakes.

That is another part of the diet: making sure all veggies are at least slightly cooked and not eating anything straight from the fridge. I was told this was so my body didn’t have to expend the energy to warm it before digestion. If that allows my body to focus its energy on keeping me healthy and making a family, it’s a small price to pay.