Good night, sweet prince.

Our first beta on Friday was 7 and that number fell even further to 3 today. I knew it was coming, because a 7 at 11 days past a 5 day transfer is not a good number.

Estrogen is sky high 2000+ and progesterone is over 100. The crash will be fierce.

I did absolutely everything I could do. Prayer. Prayer warriors. Acupuncture twice a week for 6 weeks prior. Blood-building diet. Bone broth. High protein diet. 2-day bedrest. Acupuncture on site before and after transfer. Didn’t lift anything over 10 lbs. Barely used any stairs. Watched funny movies. Ate pineapple core for 5 days after transfer. Took Lupron, Cialis, Pentoxifylline, intralipids IV drip, low dose aspirin, extra vitamin E, food-based prenatal, extra methylated B vitamins, extra vitamin D, estrogen suppositories and injections, progesterone injections, HCG injections, no exercise, no caffeine, no chocolate, no coffee, no dairy, no sugar, no alcohol, no gluten, organic as much as possible, and still… no success.

I cannot take this burden on myself. I did everything there was to do. Now I pray for peace that only God can provide – that which passes all understanding.

But tonight, I say good night to our baby boy, our prince. We will meet you again one day.

Side effects?

The allergies have got me down. If I hadn’t already been to the doctor weeks ago, I would swear that I have a sinus infection. so. much. drainage. I think it’s seasonal. That’s what I’m hoping. 

I have had headaches off and on, body aches, and extreme drowsiness. This morning, I woke up and feel/look more bloated than the previous weeks. I have found that it is easier and less agitating to sit down and lean forward as well as exhale when I do the injections. 

All in all, the side effects have been nearly nothing. I keep telling myself that this is just a short amount of time in the long run. Tomorrow, we meet with our doc to help us make a decision about putting one or two embryos back. The next day, I have bloodwork and an ultrasound to check the lining. The following day, acupuncture with another treatment this weekend. Oh yeah, I almost forgot. If all goes well, PIO shots start this week, too. 

8 days to FET!