In less than 24 hours…

…we will get to meet our third frozen embryo. We are cleared for takeoff with our FET scheduled for tomorrow at 2pm. I can hardly believe it!

We are so grateful for all your prayers. Only God could give us the endurance for this and the strength to believe this can work.

The endometrial lining was between 6 and 7mm with a triple-layer. The scars in the basalis layer of my uterus are still there, but “the embryo doesn’t know they are” said our doc today. Ha! Funny stuff he says.

If you want to reach me, I will be doing … well, basically nothing except focusing on positive energy, prayers (for so many people also needing prayers right now), and doing my best not to annoy my loved ones who will be waiting on me for the next 2, or 3, or 6 days. :)

Please stick around and meet us in about eight and half months, little frosty em-baby!


Trigger shot!

okay, we aren’t out of this FET yet! Though my lining is only at 6mm when they’d really like 8, we get to check for fluid again on Monday, and if the fluid is gone we get to transfer on Tuesday!

So, tomorrow is trigger shot day. No more cialis or pentoxifylline or vitamin E extras. Yay!

Had an AMAZING trip with some girlfriends and am geared up for whatever lies ahead. Praise God for his timing!

Where am I now? Exactly, what ARE we doing?

I am 33. Hubby is 35. Baby J, our miracle IVF baby, is a wild, independent and brilliant 2.5 year old. And, yes, I will call him Baby for a long time…maybe forever. :)

My infertility is a bit of a mystery. Originally, it was thought to be diminished or poor ovarian reserve, POR/DOR, when my AMH came back low. The antral follicle count was decent, not as low as expected, so that was strange. Subsequent AMH tests showed higher numbers (which science says is impossible). I responded well to IVF meds and had a decent number of eggs retrieved. All but one fertilized but they quickly dwindled as only four made it to Day 5 or 6 blasts to be frozen. Genetic testing showed them all to be “normal” with no chromosomal abnormalities.

We never discovered why we miscarried in 2012 after becoming pregnant shortly after our HSG procedure. Baby Drew would be four this past month.

I have MTHFR C677T homozygous, meaning that I do not utilize B vitamins (one of which is folate), so I treat it daily with a better form of B vitamins and low dose aspirin.

We were dealt a second blow of Asherman’s Syndrome (intense uterine scars) after complications from Baby J’s delivery. I’ve had 5 surgeries in 2.5 years along with a failed FET in March of this year and over a year of hormone therapy.

We were scheduled for another FET in September, but postponed it until October to accommodate a fun trip I have planned with a great friend.

I started meds for the upcoming FET this past Sunday and add a whole bunch more on Day 1 of the cycle, Sept. 16th, if all goes as planned.

My protocol for this FET involves Nuvaring for birth control (to avoid the Evil Clone from BC pills), Lupron, Doxycycline (for me and hubby for 5 days), Cialis (for blood flow in scar tissue), Estrace pills vaginally, Delestrogen IM injections, Intralipids (I’ll learn more about this if we get that far), bi-weekly acupuncture, moxabustion on foot points to build lining, guided meditation, and yoga whenever I can get it in. We will prep the uterine lining for 21 days, with FET on day 26. I am free of gluten, dairy, sugar, caffeine in all forms (chocolate, coffee, herbal teas, etc.) and doing my best to eat foods which are easier for my body to digest and more supportive to my body.

I work as a teacher three days a week.

We recently moved and are adjusting to a smaller, older home, bigger yard (YAY), and dramatically shorter commutes (double YAY).

Lesson learned: Change is hard, even when it is welcome.

I am doing my best to be a loving mommy, wife and human being. I fail often, but I keep trying.

We believe in prayer and believe that this life is not the end. We pray that God is with you all.


Cancel that.

But not my girls’ weekend!

I’m torn right now, feeling that I should do this or shouldn’t do that.

Between my hubby and I, we’ve decided to postpone the FET until after the girls’ weekend trip. It’s not recommended to travel, especially when we are up against such odds as it is, so we are going to wait, again.

We are hoping and praying that an early to mid October transfer is the ticket.

As for now, we are off all meds, and crashing as usual.

Doing our best to keep swimming.

Don’t worry. Be happy.

(Prepare for TMI.)

I feel like I titled a post that before… Why can’t I actually DO that? I should be excited that we have our FET schedule. Instead, I’m annoyed that it keeps getting delayed. I’m concerned about traveling with all those needles and scripts. I keep thinking, “how can this possibly work? It feels like things are stacked against us!”

Oh, and I’m having a “fat day.”

But then I remember, we are here. We are HERE! In the past two and a half years, five surgeries and LOTS of hormone pills oral and suppositories in addition to injections and one failed FET, we are finally HERE, at another FET chance again.

So, tried something new by my choice this time: Nuvaring (because protocol requires me to be on birth control regardless of the fact that I have literally no chance to get pregnant without extreme medical assistance). I gotta say, it’s nice to not need to take one more pill every day. If anything, I lean toward the sad side rather than “evil clone” side (brought to me and all those around me by “the pill”), so I’m good with that.

The next FET day is set for Sept. 20. Lupron starts next week. This FET cycle will involve Cialis, Pentoxifylline, Vitamin E, Folgard (or the equivalent), Doxycycline for me and hubby, estrace pills, progesterone injections, delestrogen injections, but no prednisone. Lovenox will be added after transfer and intralipid treatment will happen a few times before and after transfer. There will be many opportunities to sample my blood and view my insides on ultrasound, transvaginally. Of course, acupuncture will be a constant. I have visited her one a week since my most recent surgery in late April. I will see her twice a week in the month leading up to transfer and more often if needed. She is able to eliminate the crippling pain that accompanies the Cialis. She is able to help me manage the swings from hormones.

Acupuncture is my dose of “happy” in the rest of this mix.

Toddler snuggles and the same from my hubby are also a good dose of happy.

I got this. I got this. I got this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

If you’d pray for us, that would help A LOT, too.

And I just booked my flight…

I just purchased flight tickets for a what I’m sure will be a wonderful trip with a great friend. I’m so excited.

I’m also concerned.

If all goes the way we plan, I will be traveling with needles and prescription medications (in pill and fluid form). So, I’m taking a deep breath and planning for more time to get through security. I also purchased the “early bird check-in” option to provide a better chance that there will be room for my carry-on. I won’t be checking a bag, just carrying with me.

The next two months are full of many things and if things with IVF don’t go as we planned, I’ll still have this trip.

I’m so excited!

30 day cycle, second round

This cycle is not quite as heavy as the last – guessing those herbs from my acupuncturist did some amazing work last cycle to get everything really built up. Not much new on the fertility front for us, just plugging away at pills, injections, and waiting.

Waiting is the hardest part.

I want to rush this.

But I know how important it is to take this time to heal. To allow my body to prepare appropriately.

Praying for patience.

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