Good night, sweet prince.

Our first beta on Friday was 7 and that number fell even further to 3 today. I knew it was coming, because a 7 at 11 days past a 5 day transfer is not a good number.

Estrogen is sky high 2000+ and progesterone is over 100. The crash will be fierce.

I did absolutely everything I could do. Prayer. Prayer warriors. Acupuncture twice a week for 6 weeks prior. Blood-building diet. Bone broth. High protein diet. 2-day bedrest. Acupuncture on site before and after transfer. Didn’t lift anything over 10 lbs. Barely used any stairs. Watched funny movies. Ate pineapple core for 5 days after transfer. Took Lupron, Cialis, Pentoxifylline, intralipids IV drip, low dose aspirin, extra vitamin E, food-based prenatal, extra methylated B vitamins, extra vitamin D, estrogen suppositories and injections, progesterone injections, HCG injections, no exercise, no caffeine, no chocolate, no coffee, no dairy, no sugar, no alcohol, no gluten, organic as much as possible, and still… no success.

I cannot take this burden on myself. I did everything there was to do. Now I pray for peace that only God can provide – that which passes all understanding.

But tonight, I say good night to our baby boy, our prince. We will meet you again one day.

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7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jennifer
    Oct 24, 2016 @ 20:56:43

    I have no words, except to say that I am so sorry, Ann. I can’t imagine. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

    Reply

  2. Amy
    Oct 24, 2016 @ 21:03:38

    I’m so so sorry, Ann. Sending love to you, friend.

    Reply

  3. Amy
    Oct 24, 2016 @ 21:06:09

    I’m so so sorry. Sending love to you, friend.

    Reply

  4. sbach1222
    Oct 25, 2016 @ 06:23:24

    I am so sorry. Praying that God provides you peace.

    Reply

  5. Marixsa
    Oct 25, 2016 @ 07:08:09

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for comfort in the days ahead.

    Reply

  6. Lauren
    Oct 31, 2016 @ 20:41:14

    I am so sorry that I am just now seeing this post. Warmest hugs to you. I pray that you are held in our Heavenly Father’s embrace.

    Reply

  7. raymond1905
    Nov 14, 2016 @ 17:01:14

    Sending you love and strength. I am so so sorry

    Reply

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