30 day cycle

Well, this is the heaviest menstrual cycle I can ever remember having, aside from after delivering baby J, the post-surgery hemorrhage and miscarriages. The last cycle was 30 days long, 21 days of estrogen therapy starting the day after surgery with an additional 7 days of progesterone.

While the heavy cycle is atypical, it is good news considering that building a good thick lining has been a challenge for me since discovering the Asherman’s issue last year. Maybe this fifth surgery has provided the space needed to grow a healthy lining OR the Chinese herbs I took starting one week after surgery this time made a difference. Either way, I’m pretty optimistic.

I look forward to sharing this positive change with my IVF nurse and acupuncturist. I have such a great team of professionals working for us.

On another topic, I watched “The Fault in Our Stars” today. Bawled. Of course. But it was a powerful movie.

I don’t know when or where this chapter in our story will end, but when it does, I know the three of us have enough love to find happiness, regardless of the outcome.

One of Three.

Well, here I am, 21 days of estrogen therapy (2mg estrace suppositories morning and night with injections twice a week) followed by 5 days of progesterone (provera) and I have just two more of that. My cycle should start any day, then we get to start round two of the same treatment. Doc would like to see me go through three months of treatment before we try another transfer cycle.

Every time I start provera, I think my cycle will start like clockwork. The waiting for the starting seems to take forever, because I’m not really awaiting anything, just the end of this cycle. There is no reward or excitement. Unless you find suppositories exciting… not I. It has been nice to only have to swallow the provera once a day instead of twice a day suppositories and twice a week injections. To those of you that have more than two suppositories a day, wow! You are a trooper! I’d rather do injections than do that. Lucky me, I get both. Ha.

We have other exciting things happening, moving to a house closer to work and in a wonderful neighborhood next weekend, my mom’s 60th birthday, plans to visit friends and family this summer, and we are in the last week of school until August. Good stuff.

Toddler J is keeping us busy and challenging us greatly with his independent spirit. His sweet moments are overwhelmingly sweet. Those moments amaze us. Of course, there are other amazing moments when he decides to communicate very clearly what it is he wants or sees/hears/smells/tastes. We often look in awe at him.



Embryo #2. Until I see you again.

You are loved and have been loved even before you were conceived. You were given a name. A strong name to honor both of your mama’s grandmothers.

June (shortened from Julianne)


I mourn your loss as my child. I also mourn the idea of mommy/daughter time.

One day, we will all meet and our babies Drew and June Hazel will be there to celebrate with us. You have joined the many family and friends we already have with our Heavenly Father. I think of you both often. I love you. We love you.

Your mommy and daddy will do our best to make you proud and honor your lives by living ours to the fullest.

(written May 2016)