I know little else.

I was REALLY hoping to avoid BC pills this time around. I didn’t use them before my mock cycle and things looked good at the end of that one, so I was hoping to do the same this cycle, but for some reason, I cannot skip those darn pills – eh. They seem worse on me than most of the other meds I’ve ever taken. I’m not a fan.

But, I start BC pills today and stop taking them on the 14th. I start the Lupron on the 10th. My meds this time around will be Cialis (as if Viagra wasn’t curious enough last time), estrace pills, pentoxy, and continuing 1000mg of vitamin E. This is all in addition to my regular stuff taken every day (listed on my timeline).

I feeling very out of control right now, but especially with this cycle. I don’t know what my regimen with meds will be. I don’t know what the results will be. I don’t know if we will do a frozen embryo transfer or go into surgery. I just. don’t. know. (And I didn’t even express any of my concern about the state of education, presidential elections, or where our family will be in five years.)

My amazing friend, my acupuncture therapist, pointed out that I have one job right now: wait. I need to wait. … That’s not fun, but it is liberating. And I know the Lord has a plan for all of US in all of THIS. I can’t imagine what it is, but He brought us our son, and if time were to rewind and our story were to change, we would not have him, so I give God thanks every day.

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Littleblacky
    Feb 02, 2016 @ 19:12:38

    Hang in there! It’s a waiting game on my ends too! Best of luck to both of us…

    Reply

  2. Lauren
    Feb 04, 2016 @ 14:47:03

    Oh, friend! Right there with you! BC pills have been horrible this time around. I’m literally on my 3rd or 4th prescription since November of different pills. While I’m not nauseous on my current BC, I have been bleeding/spotting since January 7! Arghhh!!!! I too am looking forward to stopping the pills later this month after starting Lupron. My start date is February 19, so we are close together on that one too! Can’t wait to catch up in person, but truly try to rest. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically. Let’s do this next pregnancy with more trust. Hugs!

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