I am a science experiment.

If I didn’t feel like an experiment before, I certainly do now. We tackled the “unknown” causing us to not conceive when we enlisted the help of IVF and were gifted with baby J. Now, adding to that “unknown” my battered and scarred uterus, and we are all left scratching our heads.

This month was prepared to be a mock cycle, trying new meds to build up the uterine lining sufficiently. We are up against quite a challenge due to the severity of the scar tissue deep in the uterus. So, of course, my body would decide to rebel against all reason and, even while on estrogen, it would decide to begin sloughing off the functional layer of uterine lining that we are so desperately trying to build…. 7 days early.

It’s day 14, but my body is acting like we are on day 21 or further. I’ve had medicated cycles before where the sloughing didn’t begin until well past day 28. What is going on?

The orders are to stay on meds unless the bleeding continues, then we go back to birth control pills, but either way, we keep our final appointment next week. I can’t imagine what my doc is going to say. I hope he will have experience with sassy uterus’ like mine and have a plan all ready to go, with extra support during the last two weeks so we keep things from falling apart too soon like they did this time.

I do feel that things are progressing in the right direction. I feel more bloated in my lower abdomen – not pleasant, but when the goal is to build and promote blood flow, I think this is a positive. The acupuncture seems to have eliminated any cramping associated with all of this, so that’s great, and it’s also helped immensely with my anxiety and general feeling of being overwhelmed by the unexpected/disappointment/”sky is falling” moments. I don’t know what did the trick to get rid of the fluid (acupuncture, viagra, pentoxy, or cutting out dairy/sugar), but it was gone yesterday. Hopefully, we can keep it away. I kind of expected some strange effects from the viagra, but there is nothing to report. Ever since I started taking the pentoxy with food, the nausea/headache hasn’t returned.

So, I now see a chiropractor, acupuncturist, and fertility specialist on the regular – they are all amazing and wonderful, I might add. I have eliminated gluten from my diet and nearly eliminated dairy and sugar. I take supplements three times a day, a various concoction of prescription meds which change each month and go in both ends, and at least a couple times a week, I give myself an injection (sometimes subQ, sometimes IM).

This has become my normal.

Daily, I remind myself how lucky I am to have this life with my husband, toddler, cat, dog, house of my own, parents, brother, in-laws, and friends who are always willing to listen and help any way they can. My new normal is wild, but it won’t last long in the grand scheme, just as time with my loved ones will pass all too quickly.

Soaking in the moments that bring me joy and doing my best to smile through the rest.

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Lauren
    Jan 20, 2016 @ 20:14:53

    I am so sorry that I am just now catching up on your December/January so far. I was sick and then traveling and have been totally out of the loop. This is all crazy! And, I have to admit sounds familiar. (On a side note, I’ve basically eliminated gluten/grains, most dairy, and added sugars too. Feeling so much better digestively.) I’ve been bleeding for 15 days so far on a second round of birth control pills (third prescription so far), and I have to call doctor again tomorrow to figure out what needs to be done. This is kind of crazy and hints at a rollercoaster that I don’t want to ride. Hang in there and hopefully this new concoction will work for you!

    Reply

    • There Is A Chance
      Jan 20, 2016 @ 21:09:46

      So much better! Isn’t it? I never would’ve thought I could say goodbye to my beloved bread.
      Oh, why! I sure hope your doc has the experience needed to get you on track. You’re in my prayers.

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      • Lauren
        Jan 24, 2016 @ 20:33:40

        Thank you, Friend! There are some substitute recipes, but nothing quite hits the spot like a freshly baked loaf of sourdough :(

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